I think there is a time in everyone’s life where the overwhelming feeling that you are not enough creeps in. I just want to be here to remind you that you are enough. Even though it doesn’t always feel like this, you are. Women experience so much pressure to look/act a certain way that I think we get so wrapped up trying to figure out what that should be that we get lost.
I was told lately that I seem so confident, well friends, I am not. Not always anyways. I have gotten so much comfortable in the past couple years but throughout high school and university there was so much I wanted to change about myself. My weight, my facial features, I wanted longer legs, better abs, and about a million other little things. I wanted to look like other people. Now, when I think about this, I almost feel silly. But, my feelings at the time were valid because that is how I really felt. I also didn’t know what to do to feel better. Instead of resting when tired, I would up my workout, instead of letting my skin breathe, I would cake on more makeup, and instead of nourishing myself I would binge on junk food or deprive myself. Treating myself like this made me cranky and insecure, which in turn made me not the nicest person. I am ashamed to admit the way I treated people when I was feeling most insecure.
Things really changed for me when I decided to start Lou La Belle. To prepare for the launch I decided I would be the face of the product. I was so nervous that people would think I just wanted to model or they would think that I just craved the attention. To be honest I did not have the money to hire a model and I wanted people to see that I use the product every day myself and this is really what my unretouched skin looks like. As if my anxiety wasn’t high enough at the time, I was so worried I would get a blemish. They happen, to everyone, but oh my gosh, I felt like it would be the end of the world if I had one for the shoot. So, I drank a ton of water daily, made sure to exercise regularly, eat clean, and not wear any makeup for about 2-3 weeks. In the first week, I did not feel so awesome. However, the second week I felt so confident. I realized that by putting on makeup first thing in the morning, I was telling myself I did not look good enough to leave the house without ‘fixing’ myself. By not incorporating this into my morning routine I felt so much better. I will say though, I have never loved putting makeup one, because I am not good at it. If it is fun for you, then you go for it sister friend, but it wasn’t for me. Today, it is lucky if I leave the house with mascara on. I also switched all my makeup over to natural brands that I love, so, when I do get all gussied up I feel good about it.
I have also learned what self care rituals I need in my life to feel good and I make the time for them. I have stopped beating myself up for taking time to myself for myself instead of working. Self care is sacred to me. I believe that you should come up with a ritual that works for you, even if it is just an Epsom salt bath once a week. Make the time. You will feel better.
Lately, women have been under a huge microscope and I think that has left some us feeling defeated. Over the next few weeks I will be launching Love Letters From a Belle. These letters are from incredible women in my life and are meant to inspire and uplift you. The first letter will be from yours truly and roll out this Sunday, so keep your eyes peeled.
I love you all. You are wonderful, and I hope you like what I have planned.